I never thought I'd hit this day...but here I am.
The headache faded by the end of Saturday and by Sunday morning it was back to the level it had been when I first started the 25 mg pills of Zoloft. In fact, I felt good enough to go to the mall yesterday for the first time in months. We didn't stay long...just over an hour, I think...but it was nice to get out.
The insomnia remains a companion even though the new pain is fading fast. This is the 4th night in a row I've watched the clock change hours instead of sleeping, so tonight I decided the heck with it and just got up. I'm nursing a large mug of hot chocolate, sitting here in my flannel jammies and a fleece robe while the house warms back up. We turn the heat down at night - why bother heating a space nobody is up in?
I see the neurologist next Tuesday and the psychiatrist that same Friday. That means 2 doctor's appointments in one week. Yippee. I need to see my neurologist to let him know what's going on with the pain medicine issue and how we're making progress in that arena, and to let him know I'm seeing the psychiatrist now, and to ask him for a letter for the lawyer that tells them I am totally disabled and unable to work.
Once I get that letter, maybe the lawyers will actually contact me and we can light a fire under this disability thing. It would be nice to get some of the money I paid into the system for an eventuality of this type. They surely didn't ask if I wanted to pay it...I shouldn't have to get on my knees and beg to get it when I need it. It's ludicrous what you have to go through to get back what you've paid in when you get sick and cannot work. I would gladly trade places with the person who tells me I can still work...even for just a week, to let them live in the pain I'm in. to juggle doctors and deal with bill collectors and keep track of pain meds and other meds and try to manage in a world that cares little for people who cannot tolerate light, sound, and smells well. It's a tough place to be when you're ill, especially if it is an unseen illness that interrupts your life.
Hopefully soon the insomnia will go away and I can go to bed at night and sleep till morning again. That would be nice.
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I've been here on earth for just over half a century. For the last several years, I've had a chronic pain condition as my constant companion. I've learned to value each and every day simply because it is there; to love and appreciate my family and friends; to enjoy life and love no matter the restrictions on my time or activity; and, most importantly, to love and worship God in any way I can regardless of my limitations.
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The older I get, the more I lean on God. He is my all in all and from Him I get the strength to go on from day to day. Currently He has allowed me to be afflicted with a nerve-based disability that has taken me out of the mainstream workplace and changed the way I live my life; in this, I see more and more how dependent I am on Him for every moment of every day. Without Him, I am nothing. With Him, I can do all things.
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"For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome. Then you will call upon Me, and you will come and pray to Me, and I will hear and heed you. Then you will seek Me, inquire for, and require Me [as a vital necessity] and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. I will be found by you, says the Lord, and I will release you from captivity and gather you from all the nations and all the places to which I have driven you, says the Lord, and I will bring you back to the place from which I caused you to be carried away captive." Jeremiah 29:11-14, Amplified Bible
1 comment:
There is no reason you shouldn't qualify for disability.
My uncle has a HUGE file of medical records on my aunt. They have gone through the process, and she would qualify, they have found out. The question is whether she will ever quit work. She flounders all the time. I think it keeps her going, in some way. But in other ways it's just yet another stress for her. She is so divided on the issue.
Best of luck. Don't let anyone tell you that you don't qualify!
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