Friday, February 02, 2007

day 484

So the appointment with the shrink went well.

He wants me to try Zoloft and we're starting at the lowest dose. If I tolerate it we'll increase it slowly to see if we can get some of the OCD symptoms under control as well as the depression. He also acknowledges that I have PTSD.

Actually it was a bit of a surprise. There was no real therapy...just a gathering of information.

Of course, I'm there because I have to be in order to get my Methadone, but I think it's probably a good thing anyhow.

After they refused to treat me at that ER on 9-1 of last year I got a bill from the doctor. I see something wrong with this picture. He's billing me for services not rendered? He refused to give me Dilaudid...tried to give me a shot of Toradol...and then after I told him to forget it, that the Toradol wasn't going to touch the pain, that he needed to call my neuro...he told me he'd call, but still wasn't going to give me a narcotic...so I walked out. I'm not paying that jerk for treating me like a junkie. He can eat his bill. He oughta be glad I didn't sue him for refusing to treat me, for libel, and for malpractice.

I applied online to talk to the Binder and Binder people. Maybe they can help me with this disability mess. That's what they specialize in, or so they say.

I've had a headache the last two days. It's probably stress. Scratch that. It IS stress. Who am I trying to fool?

So now the diagnosis list is as follows:

atypical facial pain
occipital neuralgia
allodynia
chronic migraine
photophobia
phonophobia
OCD
PTSD
chronic depression

Maybe I can get disability now.

I hope so.

It's hard living on one income when it's between one-third and one-half of what you were making before.

And still, somehow, we owe on our taxes.

I still haven't figured that one out.

2 comments:

Tom said...

Hey there, just checkin out your blog. Very intense. You are really suffering! I googled all those diagnosis and was shocked at the pain and discomfort you must be in. I have been on Zoloft for a long time, it works good for me. Better than Paxil. Take care and good luck. Have you ever tried chinese medicine or acupunture or anything weird like that? I am not so sure I could handle what you are going through. Hang in there and thanks for sharing your story.

Kayfer Kettle said...

Hello Thefrogpryncess.

Thank you for taking the time to post on my ATFP thread.

I'm stunned to read the list of things you are suffering with, and indeed, the range of treatments required to try and alleviate your pain.

I have dealt with my pain for about 5 years now, on and off, and I have felt less frustrated about it since there is a way to give the bloody thing a name and a reason for being there in the first place! I'm just not sure I'm all good with the kind of drugs this might mean I have to take.
Do any of them actually work for you Froggy? Is the Methadone the actual treatment for this in your case, or is that prescribed for one or more of the other conditions you're suffering from?

I really hope you get some relief from some of the woes you have, and I'm very grateful that you have been kind enough to offer your experience up.

Hang on in there.

Kate x