Wednesday, March 14, 2007

day 524

Yesterday I got a call from the pain management doc's office telling me they are sending a copy of my records. I put a check in the mail today for them - had hubby drop it off on his way in to work.

The psychiatrist's office is sending a letter saying what I'm being treated for, what they have tried medication-wise, and I think maybe they're putting in there that I can't work in my present state of mind. I'm not sure on that but I did ask for it.

I still haven't heard back from the neurologist's office about my request for records from there. I'm hoping I'll get them at least in time to look them over before my hearing.

I'm going to have my kids each write a letter for the judge telling him how things have changed for me from their point of view...cancelled holiday dinners, no going places, how they have to be quiet in the house when they come to visit, how I don't do much of anything but stay here and rest. Anything they can put in there will help.

I'm doing the best I can to get this ready. Maybe I can get it approved without having to pay a lawyer to help me get what I've paid into the system for since I was 16...30 years of payments. I shouldn't have to fight like this. It takes such energy out of me that I sleep the afternoon away from exhaustion combined with frustration and then I'm up all night. Add that to the med issues and I'm a big mess.

The Celexa is out of my system now and that is a good thing. I'm not sure what ideas the psychiatrist will have the next time I see him. I know it's frustrating for them when I react like this to drugs, but it's even more frustrating for me because I'm the one it's happening to and I get the benefit of their frustration ie., them telling me I'm not working hard enough for myself, or saying they think it's all in my head, or I'm asking too much...

And if they deny me I'll appeal again...and keep going till I get what I need. All I ask for is what is due to me. I wish to God I could work. I'd love to work again. If I can't even keep the house up the way I used to, how could I go to work for 8 or even 12 hours and focus on patient care, med administration, and recording things in legal documents? It makes not one iota of sense.

1 comment:

RusticateGirl said...

Are there any statistics you can provide to the court from TN support groups, etc. proving that disability is indeed normal for your condition? I am really praying that everything goes your way. hang in there.